Head Ache

Dreams are heavy burdens for me.


I often woke up from either sweet dreams or nightmares. Both of them make me feel tired. I've fallen in dreams during my sleep many times over the past three years.


Most of the people don't have dreams that often, not to mention the dreams they've forgotten. Perhaps there're some people who're eager to have the experience of dreaming, yet for me, it may also be annoying when you find yourself bombarded with dreams all day night, even throughout a week.


That's what worries me these days.

It might be reasonable that I often feel like I'm at the wrong place in real life.
When I'm in dreams, things go smoothly. Every scene seems blurred to me. I couldn't tell the difference between abstract and concrete. They just stay together at the same space quite well, but there is a story going, and I'm always the important figure in that story, while it isn't written by myself.


Oftentimes I let my mind takes over, absorbing the atmosphere which is beyond comprehention.

There're conversations between me and another. Most of them I meet at daytime, and mostly they're the ones I've been thinking of. But sometimes a person may bump into my dream as if we were dreaming at the same point, at the same time, even though we haven't met.


However, I usually end up feeling tired since my brain haven't really gone blank and got rest for a period of time. Well, I think I need to enjoy the plots instead of just complaining.

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這張畫，是為了送給一位老友在早上繪製完成的
前提，畫中的人當然不是我，
而背景更不可能是我畫的，那原來是張照片

原先畫好線稿時，想讓背景是一片白茫茫的雪景的
只是沒想到冬天經過一個早上瞬間就變成春天了

我問我姊該為這張畫取個什麼樣的名字，
她的回答真教我無言以對

【森林．狼．人】

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「難聽死了！！（怒吼）」
「阿不就關鍵字排列組合嘛—…」

這豈不就「森林有狼人」了
喔不不不……



Greeting　　2008. 2. 17