Nothing has changed so far since we were just out of Hell, and it seemed that we didn't get enough vacation....It appears obvious to me, 'cause I kept dozing off on some of the classes that I shouldn't have. But I tried hard reminding myself that there was a No. 2 sitting by my side, and a No.1 sitting next to me with an aisle between us, so that I shouldn't remain my head dropping all the time.
Today is a special day because it's my favorite teacher's birthday. I regret that I didn't prepare any birthday present for her....for I had been informed the big news since morning. Unfortunately, we didn't have her class today, so we either couldn't sing a birthday song out loud to her.....What a pity!
To my surprise, I have also received some birthday presents from my classmates and school sisters. Although I didn't burst into tears, sure enough I felt deeply appreciative for all of you! I thought no one remembered that day, neither did myself, until I found those gifts on my desk. I really enjoy to see people's handwriting, and I promise I'll keep all the things safely by my side (or they might be damaged by those naughty cats).
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Recently, or on occasion, I find myself sparing of words. It is quite often that I sink into deep thoughts, although I think it's not a bad thing, reassuring myself that it is just caused by the weather. Chilly winter often makes people blue, but for me, it's the season in which I was born, without snow drifting through the sky though.
There was a period of time that I thought becoming too spellbound into one's mind quite frightening. Sometimes it is hard to pull yourself from the whirlpool, emotions flowing through your body and are hard to suppress. Sometimes you even may feel like they are rolling through your veins.
But I don't think that emotions harm a person anyway. It's natural. Oftentimes I just let them go, like experiencing a passing dream along with a fresh breathe greeting the break of dawn.
I don't think depression can control a person entirely, and there's no need to stay away from people who may once appear irrational or pessimistic in their behavior, because sometimes, they just need a change, becoming more understanding for both others and themselves. And of course, pessimism doesn't represent a person fully. We have different aspects that either cooperate or in conflict with each other, which presents our own personalities. So, a person may smile like a daisy in front of people, while becoming irritable at other times. And a hand given from others sometimes have a positive effect on those who just can't find their way back.
I think what has concerned me all the time is that whether I have learned through my mistakes and tried to forgive and move on.
~S~
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